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2002-10-29
Oof: I've been coding for hours today... I'm very tired, and I feel lonely and sad on top of it. I don't think it's the fault of the programming, though. It actually gave me something to do today to take my mind off the loneliness.
I went through the code I hadn't really touched in eighteen months (it's lots of php and mysql, if you're curious). I did manage to get a few things working, which I'm proud of. I set up the tables (a bit more sanely than I did last year, I think.... maybe), initialized a few things, and even managed to get creation of users to work, as well as logging in, logging out, and changing of passwords. Yeeha.
So then I got all ambitious and started on the actual *content* stuff, which is hairy and messy and required lots of Deep Thinking about my tables and how I would structure them. Finally I figured out how I wanted to do it, and I think it will actually work and not be too ugly and cumbersome. I hope.
So I've set up some of that part, but it's not ready for testing yet. Ah, well. This effort will take awhile. For now maybe I'll read some. I don't really feel like watching tv.
I hate being this lonely. I wish I had a dog. I wish I had a *job*, as long as I'm wishing. And a nice house where my daughter could come visit me... damn, I miss her.
Today is one of those days where I sort of feel like a prisoner.
I know it'll get better. Some days are just to be endured, that's all. I'm proud of myself for getting a bit accomplished today, coding-wise, something I haven't managed to do anything with for such a long time. But economic panic is part of what's motivating me (I'm hoping I can make a little money off my website at some point - I'm sure not there yet.)
My knees hurt. I'm whiny. And there's no one here to whine to. I had potato chips for dinner. I didn't go through any boxes or bins today. Bleagh.
My weblog sucks. But you already know that. You must be a glutton for punishment...
