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2002-08-06
Kind of at a low ebb: Don't anybody panic, especially you, Mom.
I'm okay, just kinda feeling blah and low on energy, and the dreaded Bed Vortex is particularly powerful lately.
In other words, I stay in bed too long, and nap too much.
I'm not depressed, though. Just real reflective. I'm listening to my music more lately, and it's reaching my heart a bit more than it usually does. So that's a good thing. (for those of you who *don't* spend big swaths of your life living in an emotional fog, this may be difficult to comprehend).
Sometimes I really worry whether I'll have the wherewithal to get a job and do it properly or anything. Gah. This line of thinking is bound to make me blue, and I certainly don't need that.
I have lots of projects and stuff to work on, I just never seem to get around to actually doing them. Sometimes procrastination is crippling. It's particularly acute lately.
I know I'll feel better soon. This stuff just goes in cycles. Occasionally they're a little more pronounced than usual. If I were feeling depressed, yes, I would call my psych nurse and get in to see her quickly, but I'm not.
I'm not feeling hopeless, just listless.
